Stress

Stress, originally uploaded by Michael Shattuck.

This about summed it up yesterday. I actually took it yesterday morning after reading about a simulated ringflash technique on one of my favorite photog websites (strobist.com). After doing some editing work on this image it was still on my computer screen last night after we returned from the hospital. I looked over at it from the kitchen and said the same thing to Vicki, "yeah...that pretty much sums it up."

My dad is back in the hospital. The real stress is that they aren't quite sure what is going on. Last week (Tuesday maybe) he called and said he needed me to take him to the ER, that he was dizzy and had double-vision. We took him in and the docs just said that it had something to do with his surgery since they operated on his cerebellum.

The double-vision and subsequent dizziness worsened throughout the week and we got another call Friday night (from his girlfriend) saying he was being admitted...that he had pretty severe vertigo. But again, they just aren't sure "why" it has gotten worse.

We went to see him yesterday and he's doing terrible. He looks and sounds awful. He's been vomiting and has even had nose bleeds (sorry for the graphic imagery). They've done several tests, including x-rays and a planned MRI for today) and aren't sure if these are indeed issues stemming from the operation or something new, exciting, and different.

Pretty tough stuff. I feel bad that I'm experiencing stress when it's my dad laying in the hospital bed. But I know that these kinds of things certainly impact family as well. I'm just so tired from it all. I laugh sometimes about how we kept thinking that as soon as we got back to the states we'd have time to recoup. Ha!!

Thanks for listening cyberworld. I feel better already.